Feb 27, 2010

United State Of Mind



I am in a state of mind in which there's so many things and places and people I'd like to talk about but I can't seem to do so. Maybe because most people already posted about the things and places and people I'd like to talk about. I wanted to impart something I have not yet posted here. Like my life as a jogger or on how I've become a health buff when 2010 started. I left most of the emotional baggage I had in 2009. I've become more of a person who just accepts the way of the world and how it revolves and let things be.

I'm tired of over analyzing things. The more I over analyze things, the more I can't move forward. My existence was more of a backward stance rather than the opposite. It's like you're sitting in a moving couch and just staring the blank white wall.

Two weeks ago, I received a devastating message from my band mate/brother/bestfriend, Dj about his dad, Tito Jun. (Dj's mom also passed away a year ago) Even if I have not known Tito Jun so well, my world stand still and thought about him for quite a while. He's a typical quiet dad, workaholic and yet in his silent ways and pissed-off looks, he loves his family so much. I can consider myself also a living testament of what he was as a father of 5. His passing was a wake up call for me. A personal one: that everyone will leave us someday, physically and emotionally. The saddest part is that there's nothing we can do to prepare for it. Thus, we have each day to gather our hearts, pull some strings and make each day something that would matter long before we're gone.

We're not just seizing each day; we're actually living it the way we wanted to, without much hurt, lies, deceit and envy.

photo by: J.M.Tupaz