the saddest day (bare with me)

i need lots of doses of embraces and prayers....
because i'm having episodes of depression and sadness.
and i think i've given up the will to live... literally and figuratively.

naranasan niyo na ba yung binigay niyo yung lahat lahat sa subject na yun pero kulang pa rin... damn..

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shout out @ ms.m: sorry po... my post on my 20 random things have to be delayed. thank you sa tag ha..

Noon, Bukas, Ngayon (a poem)

Hum for the moment: "The Godfather theme" by Nino Roto

Prior to the poem:
The world is full of uncertainties. Posibleng bukas hindi mo na ako kilala. O ika'y hindi ko na makilala. That's how it is. This is the sole reason why i spend such time to sacrifice, listen, make full effort, talk, read, be sweet, love, be loved, be friend, throw my mangoish opinions, watch movies, laugh, smile, be angry, be scared, study, pray and enjoy the milliseconds I have with each and everyone thru this, or in any way I could.

Basta ang mahalaga yung oras na inalay.

I hope you could do the same not just for me, but to everyone you knew
and to all the uknown faces you've seen yesterday, today and to tomorrow.
It's not everyday we clinge that time and spend it to someone dearly.

It is the time that you've wasted for your Lord God, Family, Friend, Foe and everything in this world that makes all of them so important.

this goes out to all i/you forgot, to the forgotten and to the people who forgotten us.
(this was the effect of hell month in school... heheh!)
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Yesterday was full of hope
today is hopeless
if tomorrow will come, then there's still hope
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Yesterday we enjoyed reading every pages of our lives
today's a busy day
tomorrow's quote will be "i dont know what to say"
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Yesterday you were here
Today I'm absent
Tomorrow's a free day but we're both not available
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Yesterday I sang
Today You sung
Tomorrow we sing
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Yesterday was to Glory
Today it may belong to Noli
Tomorrow will be for Joey(de leon)
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Yesterday's headlines

are still Today's news

Tomorrow we'll eat dinner with a flock of crows

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Yesterday you worked for 8 hours

Today you will still work for 8 hours

and tomorrow will be your 8th year in a low compensated job

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Yesterday you applied

Today you we're hired

Tomorrow you'll resign

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Yesterday we ate 3 meals

Today we'll eat 2 meals

Tomorrow i'll eat you

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Discman for Yesterday

Ipod for today

ultra-electro-galactic-with built-in laser beam, friend, pet, camera

videoke, radio, tv, mother, car, flashlight, cellfone and grand piano

for Tomorrow

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Yesterday I photographed you

Today you took a picture of me

Tomorrow we'll put in an album, and tears would be our glue

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Yesterday we knew each other so well

Today we talked about our feelings

Tomorrow will break each other's hearts

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I was your yesterday

Can you be my Today?

So we'll have each other for the next coming days?

Of friends and Issues...

Tune for the moment: "Somewhere Only We Know" by KEANE

Everyone has it's own worst experience about this. Either been a victim or have been accused. This is a cowardly thing a person could have done to someone. A last fatal blow. But in the end, a person who backstabs will never gonna be a winner. It will only put more gasoline to a burning wreckage.

Everyone is susceptible. Everyone's not knowingly unto this kind of mess until they are already aware that they do hurt someone. Some people have done it in purpose, while others have no choice.Heavenly sent relationships went awful in an instant and you lose touch on your morality. Some lose their sanity others failed to accept reality. Still this bad attitude exist even if we do know it's a sin.

I had two friends right now backstabbing each other. Both female. they WERE best friends before until a lethal news that they called it a "joke" broke of to one of their 'open forum'. One girl could not let go of the past to her ex-lover and accused of being selfish while the other girl had secretly in-love to her bestfriend's ex boyfriend.

I wouldn't go on more about the details. It scares me to think that relationship as friends end like this now adays. backstabbings, fault findings, naggers, mess makers and everything in between. All forgotten the essence and value of having a friend.

People tend to say "best friends are also your best enemies." To hell with these people who thought about this. This quote made the society poor on having a self concept of relationships or companionships. They lack comprehension on that of a viatl key were once a person enters a certain relationship, they will be vulnerable to lost, hate, fear of losing, envy, mistrust, backstabbing, misleading, bad influence, pressure, unloved, doubtful and advantaging one another's capabilities, good attitude and skills. If we understood these, then we will be more aware of ourselves of knowing and choosing the treasures we will keep. Too idealistic? too perfect? Perhaps. Probably. Maybe. It's not all about the perfect ones but the real ones who come along.

well... let's get back on this ailing issue on backstabbing. What ever happened to mr. dignity and ms. humility? I hope they're not lost in this culture. I know they're still here. All it needed was to tap them in our hearts and mind.