Oct 30, 2004

hOme SweeT HoMe...

Seldom do i encountered a song that could moved me so much. until a friend of mine(jeff) recomended me to listen a song from dishwalla. i find this song so simple yet it can electrify your heart, mind and soul in some sense of directing you in a very positive reaction towards finding home. the writer and vocalist (j.r. richards) re-defines home as a place in each of us we can find. as far as the song is concerned, the composer never even distinguished it as "a place" like a simple house. its more than just a house!

if you found it, dont ever let go of it. because it symbolizes our wholeness and essence of being a person. ever wonder why may mga taong nakaka gaanan natin ng loob? this is for a reason that they have found a home in each others company. from what the world looked like right now, with bad politics, crime, hatred, fear,loneliness, war and depression, its so sad to say that it becomes very seldom right now to find a person who makes himself/herself at home to everyone. it has been so instinct. yet the good news is we find them more visible from our families, friend/s, boyfriend/girlfriend and most specially to God.

i provided lyrics below & i hope you can find time to go to their site dishwalla.com to listen for the song!

this is dedicated to all the persons i've known for the past 22 years of my life. i hope i have
been such a home to you all in some ways as you all have influenced my life in a positive prespective ...
at sa di
kalayunan ay nahanap ko ang inaasam-asam na tahanan sa bawat isa sa inyo. nakz! thank you!


the family - mum,pupz,kuyagavs&curt
the bandmates/bandfriends - jijaw,dose,japox,sagun&gracia,lg,stephen,charise,joan,mapi,
joey&arvin
the forum - calculus,
venice,jeffcrazy,randel,jhana,ralph,sarah,tita ellen,tito rei,iya,bianca,jepi,kimboy,toots,bubbaray,freyti,sweet,veann,chelsea,tenken,
aevhon,keon,ali,deez,hellkat,kreimh,ikda7,stitch,cayrod,direkmartin,
kuyajay,kuyamaoi,diane,hudasiskariote,ashley,rishy
ah,atecat,atezanne,lmp,jac,gino,chase,aaron,ja_raellengcxstaff&ibcstaff

the blogs - kessa,kooky,pammy,aecee,tiepee,claire,roanne,budz,shiela,ala,iya_g,hipstah

&mr.jim
the chronicles/wcc - raia,em,emma,lou,annafe,nikki,mamirine,thestaff,joan,annalyn,gian&everyone
sa office namin!

sa abot ng aking memorya, sana wala akong nakalimutan.hehehe... enjoy the song.. =)


HOme
by DiShwalla

I'm so sick and tired of all these things

that dragged me down
I've got no where to go
they say that life is in these hands
you give everything
you give yourself away you give
and still you choke
and find yourself you running for the door

come and take me

home
lead me to your door take me where you are
lead me to your door
at least just for a while

its some kind of life
forever days
we're in the cold
and unfamiliar way
so take this fear
and fade it out
it won't make me sad
cause I get sentimental lord
in other ways
and I don't wanna let me down here anymore

so come and take me home
lead me to your door take me where you are
lead me to your door
and let me in
just let me in
and let me leave
just let me leave this world
come on now let me leave this world
at least just for a while



Oct 17, 2004

LisTen Up! OuR LeSsOn FoR ThE Day iS...

ahem...


ever since i graduated from highschool, i started to practice less on cheating (in any form). i opted not to be the LAST OPTION when major exams or quizes are comming. it all began when i took entrance exams from the colleges i went to. when proctors of those admission tests exclaimed "NO LOOKING ON YOUR SEATMATES PAPER!" blah blah.. ok.. masunurin ako. sinusunod ko lang. then it went on.. unfortunately, i sometimes ended with a failed mark. ok lang! atleast, having a conviction that i honestly took that exam with my own might is somehow relieving after exams... i may have a failed grade but God repay those good deeds at the end of the day like in my family's health, having a peaceful life or another day to live!


some of the cheating tricks i've observed from gradeschool to college:


*kapag hindi nakatingin si mam/sir technique - ofcourse! the golden rule: wag mag papahuli kapag nakaharap ang titser!

*the all time kodigo making technique - oh yes, lalo na yung mga exams na true or false, multiple choice, enumeration at identification. these are all the temptations why kodigos are the most reliable source of answers! we can write it in almost evrything we can put inside our uniforms pockets! anjan ang panyo, socks, post it, calculator(programmable), tissue paper, registration forms, examination permits, in the HANDS, arm chair, at sa lahat na pwedeng sulatan!

*High Tech cheating Technique - ito yung mga desperadong may kontak pa sa labas or someone like a "reliable source" para makapandaya! hanep sa style ah!

*the signs - this technique evolved ever since it has been debuted when examinations are aproaching! these are in the signs of tapping, blinking, whistling, coughing, yawning, finger signs, movement of the feet, singing and hand signs! the worst of the evolution of this technique was face making! wow! come to think of it! hehehe..

*garapalan - eto yung kahit nakaharap at nangongolekta na ang titser ay ipinamumudmod ang kanilang papel sa mga katabi kapag last 5 minutes na. sinisigaw na ng malakas yung sagot.

*the accomplice - this one's a classic! a classmate of yours will distract the teacher, proctor or the professor by questioning him/her about the exam. pero dapat matalas na ang iyong pandinig at mata para maka kopya ka sa loob ng 5 to 10 seconds!

*PWISTO! - eto isa pang classic! before the exams, everybody's busy planning a sitting arrangements of their own. individually or group, this technique has been scrapped out by students due to anti sitting arrangements of the proctors.

*mission impossible or heist - this technique have done only by those who are experts on the field of cheating. ito yung technique na pinag aaralan lahat. from the teacher's mode of exams, sitting arrangements, stealing an examination paper to questioning the students from the other sections. matinding preparations ang ginagawa nila. they plan as if they are stealing a big casino from vegas.


you think its better to cheat than to repeat? hehe... well, think again. the more you practice it, you may not notice it at first, but it will became a part of your daily routine. hanggang sa dinadaya mo na ang sarili mo at ang mga minamahal mo sa buhay. the worst, you tend to break the rules. from simplier to the most. from paying the ride fare to paying the rent. sooner or later, magiging mitsa pa ito ng iyong buhay to end your career.


Oct 9, 2004

a song, an apology and on letting go...

im still down... but i began to smile for some time these past few days.. haaayy..
this is a song from "the verve pipe" entitled "never let you down".
this one goes out to a friend of mine who celebrates her 20th birthday today! miss boyd! =)


apologies for my links.. mali mali spelling ng ibang links ko and i promise to fix it as soon our phone is back on line! hehehe.. naputulan kasi kami e.. heehee!

on letting go and holding on...

right. its a cliche. it happens every after surviving a heartache or an incident in your life. i'm not really used to posting my sentiments here in my blog for some private reasons. i am careful
when it comes to the affairs of the heart. specially with my own.
(*sabay pasok ng crazy over you by 112 at reasons by earth,wind & fire).

a month ago, i began my lessons in the art of letting go. it was a psy war between the heart and the mind. the mind tells me... "you have to let go, its the most rational way to do." and the other... "dont. hold on still. believe in the power of love." it was difficult. i woke up everyday, still thinking about her. your always not on focus and sometimes natutulala ka na lang. the process itself is too difficult. its like taking away an important part of your heart. its almost imposible to get rid of the feelings i had. doon kasi ako lumiligaya. dun kasi ako masaya. so why let go
if it makes me happy? because for some parts, that happiness blinded me from seeing into reality. i felt happy and sad at the same time. its useless for me to continue because its pointless.
in the end, my mind wins because.. my heart had nothing left for me to give. i've given even the love i left for myself.(yes i know its wrong.) kung baga sa isang bag ng chippy "simut na simut na".


lessons learned...

sincerest love just aint enough for you to give. some people really cant be contented on what other people could offer. perhaps i am not really for that person. pero sabi nga ng ibang tao... "for as long as you've loved her with no bad intentions and pretentions, your still a winner." hold on for that reason and the healing process will be smooth.

meanwhile, im still in the same process of healing but with the less brooding thoughts on her. im HOLDING ON to the pieces left for me to fix. pangit man ang ending, pero its worth telling! the whole experience taught me a great lesson and discover a whole new
ultimate meaning and form of loving someone... its not sex. its SACRIFICE. im thanking that person for letting me experience it.

*ccigaux started to sing "i could not ask for more" by edwin
mccaine and afterwards "star" by simply red.
"ah hope ah hope ah hope you comprehend... ah hope ah hope..."

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