kaibigan and the meaning behind it

friends with expiration date???


i was down for quite sometime. wala ka man lang taong makausap para ilabas ang problema mo sa buhay. at home, you were tired of every misunderstanding sermons of your mom but you always believed that its for your own good.

is there a part of yourself that you felt very ill? its like in most of the movies were this person holds a gun. inches away from his hand to his head, in no effort at all can put the gun thru his head pull the trigger and be dead... he's minutes away from breaking apart with his soul... is this the only choice? confused and silently cryng. have you ever felt that certain feeling that your sitting in a park, alone, needing someone to embrace with and hoping somehow there's a person who could sit beside you and offer you the most expensive coffee from starbucks. it doesnt matter what this person can offer but the moment she/he thought of giving you 5 minutes of his/her time to sit beside you is enough to wipe the sorrow away. you see, its not the things that you count most but the uncalculating moments that person gives to you when it needed most.

i do believe people change. people come and go like applicants on your office. the harder part that you cant accept is the fact that somehow they will change their part that you see them as a person or a friend. you can say right into my face that "ok lang, dami naman ako kaibigan e.." or the filtiest "hindi ka kawalan!" its like they were never important to you at all... and what an irony, you heared those shattering words just when you needed a friend most.. these occurs to me all the time. i dont know... its really hard to believe that their are this so-called temporary friends & buddies for life... not to mention the friends for benifits foundation. its up for those people to realize where to put their friends around. do they desrve to throw in the box full of imitations, back stabbers, snakes & expiration dates or to a small jewel box packed with goodness and tender loving pals!

when you need to treasure those friends that are hard to find, you show them a full appreciation despite the only things they can give you is time. ok.. when was the last time your friends never bother you to text but when the time comes you have been hospitalized they were there, just to see if your doing fine. these are the pals that touched your heart... if you already find them, grab them and never ever let them go. but when the time comes they are grabbing them to you by the so called inevitable "change" or if you had done your part to him/her, maybe that will be the sign that person doesnt need you anymore.

..but since when was the last time a real friend finished to be your friend? i think its never ending... anjan lang siya.. maga aantay na kailanganin mo ulit ang serbisyo niya bilang isang mapagkawa at maarugang kaibigan.