two weeks.

*currently listening JULY FOR KINGS' "invincible"


in two weeks my family and i are eating sardines(to make it more tasty and delicious, i saute it with onions!) wala e... walang wala talaga kami. since my kuya and i are out of school as of this semester, my mum and my younger brother are in need of their daily fare ride. so in two weeks we have just sufficient money for survival. pero talagang dumadating ang point na mawawalan ka na ng ganang makipag laban upang mabuhay. there are times pala talaga na you'll feel empty and giving up is the only option to tap. there are times i felt that tomorrow is not coming, that i wanted to live my life that it was my last, from breathing to smiling, from blinking to moving a muscle, from thinking a happy thought to intentionally making my heart stop beating.
just hours after, i opened our pc for me to play a game. in one point i changed my mind and instead scan some of the pictures. i saw pictures of my wonderful family and my friends.. special friends to be exact. for these years it kept me alive for just a thought of their my friends. my family... hah, my family... they're the most expensive gift i have from God. for me, family means 'sticking together'. i remembered some time ago that crisis in our family like this happened every year. parang ganito, nangyari na samin to dati e. but in some degree, every time we successfully survived, the level of difficulty are getting higher and more crippling than ever.

ano ccigaux, mag gi-give up ka pa ba?
ngayon pa na kung kelang naka survive na naman kami?
sige lang ng sige... just let it flow. laban lang ng laban.
e pano kung dapang dapa ka na. yung tipong halos wala ka ng magagawa?
edi tumayo lang ulit kapag nadadapa... =)

i would like to thank the following in which somehow God tapped their hearts and helped us get over that grueling two weeks... you never let us down.
krizane, karla, jijaw, jeffcrazy, japox, sa mga tindera na walang sawang sinisilbihan kami upang makabili ng Ligo Sardines and to my mom's friends!
special mention to my dad. pa, thanks sa tawag! i love you and i miss you!

Random Question of the week:
what's keeping you to survive life? what drives you to keep on standing up and keeping the human spirit alive, kicking?