The End.(an unlikely post)

i've been itching to write about my idea on death for the past months now. but for some reasons i delayed it. indeed i was scared to talk about it. only to find out that some of the bloggers here do thought about it too. it's a scary feeling when i'm having thoughts on this. it all starts to a dad's friend of mine. my first and last meeting with him was on November of 2004. despite of his illness he still managed to take the long route from pampanga to diliman, quezon city were his son needs help particularly in acads. after settling their problems, my friend together with his mom and dad momentarily visited their son's temporary residence-my family's home. after my friend's parents visit here in our place, i decided to come along with them to the bus station were it heads them back to pampanga. along the way, my friend's dad held on to my shoulder and ask a favor. it was a favor i didnt expected to be the last thing that a father would ask of me to do.

after a month he passed away. the moment i read the text of my friend about his dad, i held my thoughts and deeply remembered about this father from pampanga that came along way just to help his son survive college. my friend who once or twice told me stories of his dad's good deeds and efforts for their family. this is why i am so proud to meet such a father like him.

december 24, 2005. bisperas ng pasko. i went to pampanga that dreadful day for the wake of my friend's dad. ang hirap e. damang dama mo yung kalooban ng pamilya na napaka hapdi. after that, i went straight to zambales for a family christmas celebration with some relatives. i went on with a face with two emotions.

clearly, like what ms.cali and ms. kai wrote to their blogs, that we should live our lives to the most we can. we must value our lives, our family and our friends. for this, we also value our relationship to God.

i value my friends. "there is no greater love than a man gives out his life for a friend." somehow i make the most out of what i can do to help them, always sensitive to their feelings, to be with them, to listen, to communicate, to tell jokes and to make them smile. i wanted them to feel that i am blessed no matter where and how i met them.

i value my family so much. i devote myself to them. we proof-showing to each of us at home that family means "sticking together".

i value my life. i never smoke before, i rarely disobeying rules, i drink beer, i sleep late, i have a band, i kram, i sing, im scared of rats, im a fan of Iya and i am skinny. valuing your life was never meant to be perfect. balance it.

i value my relationship to God. it always pays to be humble and i learned that from Him. for being humble you learn to listen, to be patient, to have conviction to do the right thing whenever i sinned and the importance of respect.

death may seem to be everywhere. so value what you have right now! wag na natin antayin pa na may mangyari pang masama and at the end we tend to say things like... "sana" and "bakit". if there's a beginning and thus, there will always be an end.