Apparently

Happy and sad at the same time.

Happy because you thought of her almost every after an hour. You thought of her whenever you were caught alone inside a fast food chain with lots of couples around you. You are unaware that your last MRT stop had just passed two stations away. And never you will mind the fuss of riding back again and waiting for a new train on a rush hour. People will see you smiling amidst the heavy rain and lack of discipline towards motorists. And you shall never give a shit. Yes, smiling, chuckling for a second. It's as if someone pinched one of your funny bones. Never you will mind the foul smell of someone sitting beside you. Nor the fare ride change you received from unscrupulous tricycle drivers. Nor their excuse.. "Wala akong singkwenta centavos, bossing e." and say "Ayos lang."

You will finally brought up an excuse to make your own world happily go around. It's crazy when you do nice things when you're in love. It's not that I was a bad person. It's just that... well, you know what I mean.

And the only therepy to this kind of disease is S.T.W.H. (Spending Time With Her)

But how? Suggestions, anyone?

Sad. Because you can't do anything about it as of yet. You just need to bear the thought of having one way communication. Call her? Hmm... Not my thing.

Missing someone so badly is synonymous to ten thousand sighs per hour.

And apparently, it all comes down to this five cliched words:

I hate to admit it but yes,

I miss you so much.