Breaking The Silences

I broke the silence.

I couldn't stand it any longer.

I felt light and heavy at the same time.

Ganun pala yun. Kapag nasabi mo na, there's no turning back, you can't sit back and relax, you need to get ready to hit obstacles, the complicated complications, the pains, the sufferings, risks on the line. It's the price of being honest. But the point is there was this thing called "grabbing that chance". Was it all worth it? Hellyeah, I guess.

I really tried to be silent. To love silently is my forte. Pero napagod din akong naka tanga at walang imik.

Unconditional love was really tough to chew. It may survive in a while but still you'll find yourself in need to be embraced; to be loved in return. But the thing is you can not ask a person to say "mahalin mo naman ako." That's too much to ask. or worst to beg.. "parang awa mo na..."

So where do I go from here? If I continue, I already knew where I would be ever since this thing began. It's a lose-lose situation naman sakin ever since e. Pero ganun talaga siguro kapag tinulak ka ng dib-dib mo. Kahit talo na, sugod lang. Tuloy lang.

Leche. Panalo na naman ang Puso laban sa Utak.

Sige, I'll stick around na lang siguro.

Let time alone decide. If friends, so be it. If not, do I deserve the outcome despite of all?

It's always been the hardest thing when you fell in love to a friend.

Shet! Sa inuman na lang ituloy ang kwento!

Smell 'Yah Later, kids!

Who do you say that I am?

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Use Bus, Love Bus, Save Gas

Some of my closest friends are already on that bus now. Snuggling and cuddling every inch of the spaces they had. Others went out of it in unity; marching down the doors while clasping hands, and beaming. Others went off alone, disoriented and promising to themselves never to go inside again with the same particular someone. Of course, there were some who went off and on, and not very particular to whose with them, because it's the trip that mattered, not the destination.

For me, it doesn't matter weather I sat on the back, middle or front. What mattered most would be the girl who'll be willing to seat next beside me, and I, willing to give my side, the seat nearest to the bus' window/windshield for her. Willing to wait for the love bus at each stop we would take.

But alas, those were still on a place called "Someday".

I'm still here.

I'm still here waiting on the Bus Stop, eating flavorless popcorn; pondering and observing on each couple inside every Love Bus that goes on back and forth; destination after destination; route every route while I heave a sigh after sigh after sigh after sigh. Checking my wrist watch every now and then. Inventing a certain amount of mannerism just to make the time fly so fast.

Where could you be?
In a different bus stop, perhaps?
Certainly we'll find each other.

Because a lonely soul will instinctively find another lonely soul.

D2 n me bus stop
Wer n u?

Conversing Internalisms

Heart: Hey! Hey! I have never sounded like this before. A couple of months ago, it was always "Lub-dub! Lub-dub!" Now it's "dubleydubdublubdublubdudubleydubdub." Something's wrong?

Me: Why bother asking me? Ask Brain, instead.

Brain: Why me? I didn't do anything?! I'm in stupor!

Me: You can't feel stuporous! You're a brain, remember?

Brain: Yes. I'm glad you made a point.

Heart: So, what now?

Me: Next question, please.

Brain: Then why her?

Me: Why not?

Brain: Be practical!

Heart: Be patient!

Brain: You'll tire yourself on waiting.

Heart: Life is waiting.

Me: Says who?

Heart: We were supposed to ask you questions. Not the other way around.

Brain: Anyway, the point is I'll give you a million possibilities but still, you'll end up following what Heart will advice.

Me: Shut up! I'm thinking.

Heart: That's odd. How come there was no word such as "hearting"?

Brain: 'Coz if pronounced, it'll sound like "hurting". Which is very prone to you, Heart. Haha!

Me: Oo nga noh.

Heart: Uhuh. What if I'll stop supplying you unoxygenated blood right now, Brain?

Brain: Alright! Alright! I'm kidding! Anyway, what's your answer?

Me: I think I'll pass. I'll hide my answer to both of you for now.

Brain: What?! You can't hide the answers from us!

Heart: Yeah! That's not fair!

Me: Well, I'm supposed to answer questions. Not revealing them.

Brain: Wow. Why didn't I see that coming?!

Heart: Hmm... Let's ask Lungs, instead!